Chapter 74
Sophie lowered her gaze as she walked with Lance towards his chamber, she had asked him to let her go to the emerald house when they arrived back at the palace but he refused and told her that she had to deal with him for the next couple of days as he had no plans of leaving her on her own there. He was holding her so close with so many people around and he didn’t even look like he cared, he paused when they got close to his door and collected the bag that contained the drugs and vitamins that she was given at the hospital from the guard that held it and dismissed them. He led her into the room and closed the door behind them.
“Are we going to be on the news? Those photos that were taken today, will be published?”
Sophie asked. When they were alone in the room. She knew it was her fault that they got exposed to the public and now she was scared that it might lead to a ruckus in the kingdom and expose him to many talks that he might not be ready to handle.
“Don’t worry yourself about anything right now, Soph, just rest, I will fix anything that needs to be fixed by myself. Don’t worry, okay?”
He asked and she nodded.
“You can manage on your own for a few minutes, right?”
He asked and she nodded, wondering where he was going but she couldn’t ask.
“I need to go speak with Patrick, I will be back soon, just lie down,”
The king said and helped her into the bed. She managed a smile and lay still on the bed. He gave her a softly lingering kiss before he excused himself and left her on her own. The event of the last couple of hours replayed in her mind, the fear she had when she had seen the blood. How the fear amplified when she had gone to check two hours later and saw that she was bleeding so much. She had thought the worst had happened and her whole world had crumbled before her eyes. She didn’t know what to do and if Lance had not shown up so unexpectedly, she might still be laying on the floor in her bathroom crying. He came to her even though it wasn’t his usual time of showing up as if he knew that something wasn’t right with her. She didn’t know why he thought to show up so early but she was glad he did because if not. She might have cried herself to sleep and locked herself away when she was sure he would show up.
She got off the bed and paced around, thankful that her baby was okay.
“You are okay,”
She said and cradled her lower abdomen where her baby lay. That was all that mattered to her, if anything had happened to her baby, it would have broken her. She would not have been able to face her dad either, because the guilt of him not even knowing he had a baby and her dying had made everything hard to bear.
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She promised. On the ride to the hospital, she had been so close to telling him the truth. If only the baby news was the only thing she kept from him, there was so much he didn’t know about her yet he stood with her. The way he was there for her today, even though he didn’t know it was his child that she carried. If she wasn’t already in love with him, she would have fallen for him today, he was the best man and was willing to go to any length to protect her and he proved that today. Yes, she finally admitted to herself that she loved him. It didn’t start now. She has always had this feeling for him and being with him like this when she had thought it would only happen in her dreams made it easier to admit to her feelings even though she knew her feelings for him may never be reciprocated.
Sophie knew the king cared for her, even if she didn’t know before, he did well to make her know by how he acted today, he cared for her enough to take care of her at her lowest but that doesn’t mean he could love her, she didn’t want to reach too far. For them, even if she finds the courage to tell him the baby was his and he believes her, he would still need to have a family that would be accepted by his people, it wasn’t his fault. It was the tradition in Otano.
“I love him, I love you both but we can’t be together,”
She whispered as tears gathered in her eyes. She wished she fitted a little into what a queen should be, maybe it would not have been an impossible dream. She had so many flaws including the biggest which she wasn’t sure he would forgive if he found out. her identity. The only thing true about her was her name, everything else was borrowed and he will certainly not overlook that when he finds out.
“So much hidden,”
She let out and walked to the couch, she found more peace there and laid on the couch, it was as big as her bed so there was enough space for her. She closed her eyes and let the emotions that were drowning her take over. She wished there was something she could do to change their fate but it was a hopeless case. She already knew no matter what that she was going to end up alone and would probably love him forever while he would move on and start a royal family that fit with what an ideal royal family should be. Even when that happens, she would not hate him. She fell asleep to the thought.