Novel Squares
Chapter Thirty
I felt so good, really good as I talked to her, she has listening ears and also asked me a lot of questions.
We sat on the bench and watched the water fall continuously from the fountain.
“Where is your mom?” She asked so suddenly.
“She’s dead. She died of cancer.” I explained.
“I’m sorry about that?”
“It’s okay.”
I pulled her closer to me and let her head lay on my chest, she had this fragrance and I loved it, I loved our position.
“Brianna!” I called.
“Hmmm!”
“_if… What if we don’t end up patting ways?” I asked and she raised her head up.
“That’s not possible, our contract say we leave each other after a year” she replied.
“But what if love happens”
“I don’t know… I don’t believe in true love” she replied and placed her head back on my chest.
I also don’t believe in true love, but I’m trying to make out something. I’m trying to convince myself that I’ve fallen for her and that true love exists.
I promised I would make new memories with Anna and our child, I promised I would learn to love again, even if I don’t believe in true love but hell Anna doesn’t believe in it too? What the fuck is happening to us then.
“Why don’t you believe in true love, have you been hurt before?”
“No. I’ve never been in love, neither have I had a relationship that’s as cozy as ours but that’s just it I don’t believe in love, maybe because I was trained to” her reply came.
“Trained to how?”
“We believe that getting married and finding a partner is done by our parents, we don’t believe love is the foundation of a marriage”
“But you have nothing against love right? You can also fall in love?”
“I have nothing against love, I for fact love to see young people in love but I can’t fall in love, I’ve been trained not to”
“Love is real and love will happen one day!” I muttered.
I cuddled her tighter. What if I tell you I’m falling for you.
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“Who is Tara?” She asked after a very long silence.
“Tara?”
“Anna, I said her name in pacing, please let’s not talk about her” I rubbed her arm.
“No you didn’t, I could see your face when you said it, you looked drained and enraged, you can tell me about it, I promise to listen.”
“Anna, please stop it, I just want to talk about you and our baby”
“Dee…. Common spill it…” She drawled but I wasn’t ready to
Could she leave Tara out of this. I really don’t want to go back to that serrano.
“Anna, I beg you don’t….. Let’s have a peacefilled night today okay” I tried to end the conversation.
She nodded in return and I smiled and pulled her Into my embrace as I rubbed her tummy.
There was this awkward silence and I didn’t like it.
Our eyes were just fixed on the beautiful cloud and the stars that shined.
“How do you feel expecting your heir?”Anna asked.
I cleared my throat. ” Scared, anxious, impatient, happy and I have this mixed feeling that I’m unable to explain when I see you, when I see the mother of my child”
“Why the hell are you scared?” She asked and I swallowed hard.
~I’m scared of loosing yet another child, I don’t want any of such to happen again~
“Why wouldn’t I be scared, I mean pregnancy isn’t a one day journey.” In a low tone I added, ” I’m also scared of being a father, I don’t want my child to have a bad father, I want to work to become the best version of myself before my child is born”
“I bet you’ll be a good father”
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Brianna’s POV
The next day, I was all dressed for work, I stood adjusting my hair. Once I was done, I smiled and took my bag from the bed , then walked out of he room.
Surprisingly I woke up today and didn’t see Diego, I guess he went for his morning runs..
Everywhere smelt so good as I climbed down the stairs.
“Here you are, come have breakfast.” Diego spoke out.
He was on an apron.
“Someone seems happy today?’ I smiled at him.
“I am”
Diego served me and I basically rushed my food cause I needed to be in work, I still have some suspicion about our department.
•~~~~•
Am I really ready to face Serena? What should I say to her, should I come clean? But she’ll never treat me the way she used to.
I climbed down the car and walked in.
I had this serious look on.
Since I arrived early I had somethings to do.This is from NôvelDrama.Org.
I was the first to come, our office was totally empty, Serena, Laurianne, Finn and Mr Gizell had not arrived.
It was just me.
I sat on my sit and checked on some work that needed Diego’s signature, I was supposed to give this to Mr Gizell.
The file is clean, nothing to worry about.
I hope I get some clues soon.
“Right now, this moment tell me what You are to Mr De Luca’s!” I heard her voice I took my head up and stared widely at her she looks really pretty today.
“Serena…” I sturted
“Can’t we talk over lunch?” I asked.
“No, I’m too anxious”
“Promise me you won’t tell a fly . I’m trusting you with this because you’ve been so kind to me”
“I won’t.”
“Promise me you won’t treat me worse the moment you learn the truth”
“I won’t..”
“Ummm” I hummed staring at her.
“Brianna fucken spill the bean!”
“Fine, I’m his wife!”