Love Aint Always Pretty

Chapter 20: 20 Aistra

Aistra

Translation: infatuation

Origin: Lithuanian

SAVANNAH'S POV

I missed my first class today but it was alright cos it was worth it anyways and I'm still not over the fact that I just allowed myself to let Nick have sex with me as much as he and I wants to. My brother will kill me if he'll know about this and I'm doing it with a frat guy. I haven't seen Nick around the campus too after he dropped me and Tracy off the dorm a while ago.

My mind was floating the whole day. I was thinking about Nick and when we will be finally doing it. I was physically present in my classes but I was mentally absent cos I'm imagining Nick and how kissed me that night. I could still feel his lips and I always smile at myself when I remember how it tasted. He was such a great kisser.

I walked out of my class and I was thankful that the day was over. I'm tired and I haven't had enough sleep cos we left too early a while ago. The only problem I have right now is I need to borrow a book at the library for my research but I can't borrow a book cos my library card is suspended.

Damn it.

Why did I ever forget to return that novel back before its due date?

I decided to go to the library anyways and to take down notes instead. While I was on my way, I saw Billy and he hurriedly ran to me. He smiled at me while he was fixing his backpack then his eyeglasses.

"Hi."

"Oh you got a new set of glasses." I said.

"Yeah. The old one was broken during the initiation." He answered.

I smiled at him. "It looks good on you."

"Thanks. So, I was thinking. How about you and...." He trailed off.

I stared at him eagerly but he was more focused on looking at someone from behind me. Billy didn't continue his sentence anymore and looked nervous right away. I couldn't tell who he was looking at, maybe it's some group of frat men from afar.

"Billy? What were you about to say?" I ask.

"I... uhhh... well, I'll talk to you later Savannah! I forgot something." He waves at me then runs away from me.

That was weird.

I turned around to continue walking but I jumped back when I saw a very tall entity blocking my way. I pulled my head up and found Nick. It was Nick. His facial beard first caught my attention and then my heart raced right away when I stared at his lips then running up to his intensely blue eyes. He was also looking down at me and I just can't read him even though I've already kissed those lips.

"Hey." He speaks.

"Hey." I smiled tight-lipped.

Now Im wondering if he was the one who Billy was looking at a while ago.

"Going somewhere?" he asked.

For the first time he's asking me where I am heading to. God, I should kiss his lips more often so he'll be a little concerned for me.

"Library. Need to write down my research for this book in English." I said.

I feel the both of us starting to walk together now. Slowly. Tiny little baby steps. For some reason we were walking as if we were waiting for the other to take a step. We were in synch while walking and I don't know why he's walking with me but he didn't talk to me anymore.

"We have weird conversations." I snorted.

I watch him while he pulls his head down and smiled. "We do have weird conversations."

I slightly smiled.

"Tracy told me to pick you up cos she wants you to join dinner with us again tonight." He added.

"Oh." As far as I remember, Tracy doesn't know my class schedule. I never told her about it and she never asked for it too.

"Are you stalking my class schedule?" I teasingly asked him and I think he was embarrassed. Or maybe not.

He didnt meet my gaze and he was just looking far ahead. Sometimes I wish Nick was like water, so I can see him clearly. I can know his flow. I can see him being transparent to me so I could understand him. I wanna understand him. I know he is hiding something.

And Nick being embarrassed is really gonna be something to look forward to.

"So I asked for your schedule at the office cos little Tracy doesnt know it." He defended himself.

"Right." I smirk.

We went quiet again. His hands were inside his pockets and my books were close to my chest as I hold it around my arms. His long legs compared to mine were taking bigger leaps than I could do so I have to catch up with him so we're aligned when we're walking together.

"I just need to go to the library first then I'll catch up with you guys." I said.

I glanced at him and he was looking right at me. Holy Christ those eyes.

"Tell Tracy that I'll--"

"I'll go with you. We still have time." He gazed at his watch.

I literally just forgot what I was about to say to him. I gazed at Nick and he was also looking at me, examining my face. The space in between me and Nick after that kiss, changed. The way he's treating me is already different. The way I feel when he is around is already different too. Or maybe Im just putting something on everything he is doing just cos we kissed.

I dont know but I like it now.

"I promised Tracy to show up later with you." He clarified.

"But what if I'll take long on the library?"

"I'll wait for you."

"I still need to look for that book though."

He groans. "I'll help you look for that goddamn book then."

Don't smile Savannah.

Don't smile.

Don't smile.

When we reached the library, I think everyone was shocked to see Nick entering the place. I thought it wasn't a big deal that he's around here, but then I knew he wasn't a library visitor cos people were whispering to each other as we pass by some tables. Or maybe it was their first time to see Nick with a girl aside from Tracy.

"Do you have a valid library card?" I asked him.

"Nope." He answered.

Sigh. This is hopeless.

I quickly looked for that classic book that I need to study for an oral examination this Thursday. I notice that Nick was also looking for the books on other the shelves and how serious he is in helping me.

Don't put meaning on it Savannah.

I continued looking for that classic novel which was assigned to me. I'm not really a classic reader so I really need to study for it. From shelf to shelf I've searched. But I just couldn't find it. I wanted to ask the librarian about the book I'm looking for but then she looks mad to be disturbed right now. I looked around, looking for Nick and he was already on the opposite shelf to my right, squatting down while looking for it.

It was a little sweet gesture to think he's cold and moody and a jerk and... no. He's not a jerk. He's like a cold blooded animal.

I focused myself once again on looking for the novel. I think it's already a very classical book that it's no longer found here. There were also some great books that caught my attention which took almost all of

my time. More books made me totally forget that I'm here for that classic novel. All of a sudden, Nick was gone. I couldn't find him anywhere close by around the shelves where the classic novels are. But then I saw him walking over to where the slutty late twenty aged assistant librarian and he started talking to her. She quickly entertained him and was all smiling while batting her eyes at him. But the last time I was here, she's so pissed at me for disturbing her.

I continued looking for the novel anyways since it looks like he's busy with her. I kept moving to another shelf but my mind was still thinking about Nick and that assistant librarian talking so casually to each other like that. Until I noticed that I was already on the last shelf of books inside the library. I was alone here and it's pretty damn cold here too since the air condition was just right across the other edge. I still kept looking for it on this last shelf, hoping that the book is here. I mean it's the last shelf and if it's not here, then I need to go to another bigger library.

"Hey. Didn't thought you'll reach here."

I pulled my head up and it was Nick walking up to me. I looked over the shelf again. "Yeah."

"Found it yet?" He asked.

"Nope." Popping on the P while walking away from him.

But every step I take away from him, he takes the same steps closer to me. I stopped when I was already cornered by the wall but I still acted like I was looking for the book.

"Hey." He called out.

I moved my head to him and he was pulling out the classic novel. He found it! I quickly grabbed it from his hand and I was relieved to see the book on my hand. It was much better if I can take it back to the dorm with me but I can't borrow books until a week. I gazed at my watch, it was almost six thirty and I'm already starving. I'm sure he is too.

"We better go now. Tracy just texted me that she's on their way to the diner." He says.

"I told you I can't borrow a book cos my library card is dead. And I can't steal this."

"Who says about stealing?" He pulled out a library card while waving it around.

Holy hell, he didn't.

I gasped inwardly. Almost dropping my mouth wide open. Nôvel(D)rama.Org's content.

"You said you didn't have one?" I asked.

"I bought one from that assistant librarian a while ago. I heard she likes me so I guess my charm worked cos I got one of these with no sweat." He answered.

"You borrowed this book for me?" I asked, my voice almost turning into a whisper.

He nods. "Yeah."

That's why he approached her. Oh my god this is just so sweet.

"Why?" I asked.

"Cos you need it and I'm already starving." He answered.

I just nod, but still it was sweet of him. I examined the book and it's cover but my smile couldn't fade away. All of a sudden he held my chin and pulled it up to him, he was leaning closer and closer to me until I feel his lips pressing against mine. That was so unexpected of him.

I thought he was already starving but why in hell is he still kissing me?

I open my lips for him and feel his tongue making its way inside my mouth. Oh god the feeling of unexpectedness and rush are bolting around my body. I feel my back hitting the shelf now and my hands were tugging his hair. Gosh his palms are now cupping my breasts.

He.

Just.

Squeezed.

My.

Boobs.

In public!

His kiss is now going deeper inside my lips and his hands moving down to my waist, to the back of my hips, down to my ass then the back of my legs and moving back up to my hips. He squeezed it with his fingers and the feeling of his tongue playing against my tongue is too erotic to even think of it. I didn't even care if we'll get caught or if someone was watching us cos my mind was only focused on his mouth pleasuring my mouth, and his hands over my body.

"Fuck.." He cursed during our kiss.

I open my mouth wider and his tongue slides in, licking all of my tongue. His hands now groping my butt cheeks and he pushed my sex against his crotch. I feel myself tiptoeing for his height and my arms wrapping over his shoulders, holding onto the back of his neck for support.

Holy hell I already feel two of his fingers rubbing my clit coming from behind. And I thank the person, whoever he or she is, for inventing leggings. Thank you Jesus for leggings cos I can feel his fingers!

"Nick.." I moaned whisperingly.

"God I so wanna fuck you here now." He says.

I notice him looking over to our side and my eyes widened when I saw a freshman, with a bulky backpack behind her. She was a bit fat with massively thick rimmed eyeglasses and braces on her. I think she was still shocked by what she saw. I quickly pulled myself away from Nick and wiped my lips secretly. Nick was still looking at her and the fat woman looked back at him then at me and then back at Nick.

"I've never seen a make out sesh in front of me. That was so hot." She commented.

I smiled. It sure fucking was.

"How long have you been standing there?" There goes that rude Nick Wilde voice again.

"Uh... The minute you grabbed her breasts." She answered.

I pressed my lips together and looked up at him. "Nick just let her go. At least it's not a teacher or the librarian. " he stares into my eyes.

I looked over the freshman who caught us. "If you'll tell what you saw in here, Nick will surely hunt you down. So I'm warning you ahead of time. You wouldn't want to get bullied, right?"

I wasn't scaring her but I think it sounded like that cos she was nodding continuously. I held Nick's hand and we started walking near her.

"Think before you speak." I hear Nick speaking as we past by her.

We headed out of the library and marched our way to his car. "You really didn't have to scare her like that." I said.

"Why not?"

"Cos it was both our fault anyways. We shouldn't be making out like that in a library. It's public Nick. We should be more careful." I said.

"But you wetted for me when I touched you."

I glance at him and he's smiling. He's freaking teasing me right now and it's so freakingly cute and sexy. I bit the inside of my cheek so I won't smile. Goodness his smoldering eyes makes it hard for me to look away. That smug look on his face makes my cheeks blush.

"Can we just go and meet with Tracy?" I told him and looked straight ahead, while fighting with myself on not smiling.

I hear him chuckle.

We reached his car and quickly climbed inside. He started driving right away and we were both quiet again. I was quiet cos I was thinking about what we just did minutes ago. I keep on biting the middle part of my forefinger while I was looking out of the window. I still think of how his hands knows its way around my body. God I still feel his fingers rubbing on my clit right now.

"Thanks for this by the way." I pulled the book. I don't think I thanked him a while ago.

"Not a problem." He says.

We were quiet again.

"How's your hand?" I tried to keep a conversation.

"The university nurse changed the gauze since Tracy forced me to visit the clinic." He says.

And we were quiet again. I gave up, he doesn't seem to think of a thing to talk about to keep the conversation going.

"I really like kissing you Savannah." He said out of the blue.

I moved my head to him hand my heart. Is. Beating. Crazy.

"I like kissing you a lot." He added.

Holy cow I don't know how to react to that.

Nick glanced at me and smiled. "And I'm glad you let me do that to you."

I.

Just.

Died.

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