Chapter 61
“Hey,” I smiled. “Why are you waiting out here for me instead of staying inside like you usually do?”
“Hey?” he scoffed. “That’s what you’re going to say after ignoring my calls? Hey?”
“Okay I can sense some hostility here. Maybe you need to chill.”
“Don’t tell me to chill,” he snapped. “Where have you been? Why have you not been picking my calls?”
I could see that he was really mad at me but I would not let him talk to me like I was some child.
“I couldn’t pick up the call because I was at an important meeting,” I said. “There were some important people there.”
“Bullshit,” he snapped. “I called your office and they said you had left the office and when I asked where you were gone they said home. Guess what? I’ve been here for so many hours and you were not here.
“I picked up the children from school and did their homework and put them to bed and you still weren’t home. So don’t give me that meeting bullshit.”
“Are you stalking me?”
“Tell me where you were.”
I did not like the tone of his voice. I would have liked to address that but I decided to be calm only because he was acting like he was worried about me. It was cute the first few times he had done it but right now it was becoming annoying.
“I was with Asher,” I said. “Why do I have to explain myself to you every single time like you don’t know what I’m doing? I told you I needed this plan to work and I am doing it. You don’t expect me to suddenly stop what I’m doing and start acting like I have a good heart towards them.
“I’m doing what I’m doing for us, for my family.”
“I don’t like the way you always stay out there late and come home whenever you want. It’s too dangerous. And every time I ask you where you’ve been and why you’re home late, your excuse is always Asher.
“If I don’t know any better I’d think you’ve fallen for him for real. So you like him?”
Now this got me mad as I don’t like to be put in the same statement as that bastard who has ruined my life.
“Are you crazy?!” I snapped.
Pushing past him, I walked into the apartment and headed for my room.
I was not going to listen to him talk to me like that. I banged my door shut to make sure he heard it and knew that I was mad at him.
I was now becoming sure that I didn’t love Travis at all. I didn’t understand why he was on my case all the time after I had made sure to tell him what my motive was.
Why was he so jealous of Asher? I wanted to destroy Asher for what he had done to me in the past and not be with him, I would rather poke my ears full of holes than be with such a monster.
Why would Travis not listen to me when I say that? Why was he so hellbent on making my life such a living hell with his incessant questions and his constant whining?
With every episode which happens on a regular basis I was sure I didn’t love him as well as I thought, however, due to the fact that my children liked him and they were willing to be with him as well as my future plans, I decided to be with him.
I didn’t want to lose how secure I felt around him and risk my children’s future because I was angry. I could end up pushing Travis away, but I started to wish he would be less angry every time.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
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The next day, I woke up and stayed in bed for a while before getting up. I was mad with Travis about what he had said yesterday. He had no right to say those words to me.
I was doing everything possible to make sure I finished my business with the man and went on with other things more important to me.
Did he think I liked having to hang out with the only man who had treated me like I didn’t matter? Who had seen me as nothing but an object to use?
I was not happy about it, but if I needed closure and I needed it, I had to destroy him and make him regret everything he had done to me.
I had to show him that I was not that person he had married. I was someone else who was worse than the demons around.
I had to show Asher I was not weak and the best way to do that would be to get into his head and use him.
I went about my day, helping the children get ready for school.
“I want pancakes,” Landon said as I nodded, making him what he wanted. It had been a while since I had bonded with the children.
I had been spending my nights with Asher and my morning was always messed up. I didn’t help them all the time but I tried my best to.
The maid had called that morning to cancel due to some kind of emergency.
When I was done preparing their meals, I carried the plates to the living room so they would eat while watching their morning cartoons.
Travis walked out of his room and into the living room still in his pajamas looking very angry.
From his eyes I could tell he had been awake all night and not asleep.
The atmosphere suddenly got awkward for the both of us as we refused to stare at each other directly, averting our eyes when they met.
“You’re not dressed for work?” I was shocked that he was not in his suit. “Did anything happen?”
“I’m taking a day off,” he snapped. “I wonder if that is a problem around here.”