Mr. Bo, Madam Is Pregnant!

Chapter 93: Chapter 93: Guilt

Several years ago when I couldn’t protect Su Lu properly, seeing her so injured, seeing her only able to despairingly compromise, seeing her endure the pain and agree to marry Gu Xin.

When Su Zhe finally rushed back, what he saw was Su Lu covered in injuries.

Her eyes were so swollen that only a sliver remained visible, the corners of her mouth were broken, her nasal bridge was also broken, and her nose was filled with dried bloodstains.

Her body was covered in shocking black and blue bruises, her shinbone was broken, she couldn’t walk, could only drag one leg. Even the bones in her arms were broken and twisted into a grotesque shape, causing anyone who saw it to feel pain.

Su Zhe, who was the most reserved and contained of emotions, couldn’t help but have his eyes turn red at the sight of her, he felt heartache and anger.

Yet at that time, she seemed not to feel any pain at all, carefully pulling at his sleeve, begging him, "Brother, please don’t make me marry Gu Xin, okay? I have someone I like, I want to be with him. I can go far away, as long as... as long as father won’t harm him."

That was the first time Su Zhe knew of Bo Jingshen’s existence.

So, there was such a person who could make his Lulu brave any danger, regardless of the consequences.

At that time, she didn’t even have the spare thoughts to resent the Su Family or hate Su Yukan, she just wanted to leave, she just wanted to leave with her beloved.

Su Zhe didn’t refuse her, he was willing to help her, even if what she wanted was to elope with Bo Jingshen.

But Su Zhe had only one condition at that time, at least she had to heal her injuries first. Because the way she was at that time was just too heartbreaking.

Su Lu was somewhat hesitant, but considering her ghastly appearance, she agreed.

She thought that Bo Jingshen wouldn’t go anywhere, she thought that Bo Jingshen would wait for her.

But when she finally got her injuries mostly healed and went back to Hai City to find him, it was already too late.

He had left, to a place she didn’t know.

He must have used all his strength to hate her, to head off without looking back, to such a distant place in such a short time.

Although her injuries hadn’t fully healed by the time she went to Hai City, her eyes were bright as if she was walking with the wind, yet she came back devastated.

She never mentioned Hai City or Bo Jingshen again.

She didn’t even struggle anymore, and married Gu Xin.

Su Zhe was nearly driven mad, then he confronted Su Lu, asking why she did it.

He heard Su Lu’s voice, which sounded utterly desolate, like a soulless shell.

"This way I will have repaid the Su Family, and then I won’t owe anything anymore. Maybe when I’m older, there still might be a chance for me to choose my own life and lifestyle."

For the first time, Su Zhe hated being born into the Su Family, hated that he could not protect Su Lu.

This girl had pulled him out of the mire of despair when he was most desperate when he was enduring pain so severe that he almost couldn’t keep going, when he was in so much pain that he wished to end his life, and when because of his rare blood type, he couldn’t even see any hope for a cure.

She saved his life, he owed her, and he would never be able to repay her in his lifetime. Yet she said, just by giving up her marriage, she could repay the Su Family entirely.

What kind of reasoning was this? What kind of world was this? What kind of father was Su Yukan?

So, he made a move that even now, people from Feng City’s upper echelons see as astonishing.

He broke away from the Su Family and nearly severed the father-son relationship with Su Yukan, left Feng City, left the country. Besides the inheritance his mother had left him, he wanted nothing from Su Yukan.

He quietly strengthened himself just to avoid experiencing that sense of helplessness again.

Watching Lulu get hurt, and he could only stand by, feeling as useless as trash.

He couldn’t be like that anymore.

And yet, this girl had never blamed him, even now she still said gently with a smile, "Brother has always protected me very well."

Su Zhe was silent, his hand motionless for a long time, gripping a crawfish as if it had stiffened.

After a while, he resumed peeling the shrimp and casually placed the peeled shrimp meat into Su Lu’s bowl.

It must have been the spiciness of the crawfish. Su Zhe thought, that’s why his eyes felt hot.

"Don’t tease me anymore, if I had protected you well, you wouldn’t have had to endure a day like today," Su Zhe said in a low voice.

Su Lu knew he was blaming himself, knew he had never stopped blaming himself.

That was also why every time Su Lu faced her brother, she felt somewhat at a loss. Because if one party always held immense guilt and self-blame towards the other...

Such a relationship was ultimately pathological, and over time it would only create a distance.

Though she said this, wasn’t it the same between her and Bo Jingshen?

Su Lu sighed softly, looking at Su Zhe, "But brother, at that time, you did everything you could, and I’m grateful with no complaints."

Su Zhe pursed his lips and decided not to say anything more on this topic, only saying, "In any case, come back with me tomorrow. In such matters, at such events, I want you to be there."

Su Lu contemplated briefly, then nodded. She knew Su Zhe wanted to stand up for her.

Previously, Su Jiao had chased her out of her room, claiming she wanted to live in it. Under Zhu Xinyan’s guidance and support, Su Jiao had always bullied Su Lu as if it were justified.

Back then, he was still underage and had no say over the inheritance left by their mother.

He couldn’t protect Su Lu.

But he kept it all in his heart.

That night, under Su Zhe’s feeding, Su Lu ate a lot of crawfish. noveldrama

When she returned to her own place, it was already late.

Only then did she pick up the emotions she couldn’t mention in front of Su Zhe earlier.

She curled up in the bay window seat cushion, looking at the night outside, thinking about what Tang Cheng had said earlier.

Bo Jingshen’s fiancée.

So, he had a fiancée.

It wasn’t her former imagined rival, Zhuang Cai Nan, who was just his assistant, nor the later imagined rival, Jing Ruo, who was just his sister.

If she still could deny Tang Cheng’s words by deceiving herself...

Bo Jingshen’s attitude toward Tang Cheng made it impossible for Su Lu to disbelieve.

She sat on the bay window, hugging her knees, occasionally tapping on her phone screen, watching it light up and then fade, tap again, watching it light up again.

Sitting quietly for quite a while, she always felt empty inside, yet it seemed like she had forgotten something.

Something very important.

But she suddenly couldn’t remember what it was exactly...

Then, watching the phone screen light up and fade repeatedly.

Su Lu stared at the date on her phone screen.

Her eyes suddenly widened, her pupils constricting.

She stared fixedly at the date, biting her lips tightly, finally realizing what she hadn’t remembered earlier.