Chapter 45 A wonderful dad
LUNA’S POV
Immediately I got home, I fell on the sofa, feeling tired and frustrated.
Everything just seems like a dream to me right now.
” A baby? At this time ? This dangerous time ?”
I placed my hands on my stomach and looked at it.
” Little one, why now of all-time. Now mommy won’t be able to protect you from danger. Mommy will have to choose helping daddy Instead because I love him. I love you too and I hope we’re both safe “.
I kept rubbing my stomach without even noticing the tears falling from my eyes.
Keeping this from Gray was hurting as well, but it’s all for the best too.
” Are you crying? ” I heard Gray’s voice from afar from afar, and the next person that walked in immediately behind him was Collins.
I quickly used my hands to clean up my fallen tears and pretended like I wasn’t crying.
” No, no Gray I had something in my eyes while I was outside”. I lied to him standing up from the sofa and walked towards him.
” No I definitely knew what I saw Luna, I clearly so it. You were crying. I was standing there for over 10 minutes watching you and yet you didn’t even notice my presence”. Gray said with a really stern voice which had me shiver.
” Really? I didn’t notice you were standing there. I was just worried that’s all, nothing else is wrong Gray. Believe me”. I replied him, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer.
Collins kept on looking at both of us, and probably when he couldn’t stand what we were saying anymore, he tapped on Gray’s back, making Gray turn to look at him.
” I’ll be back later in the evening to check up on both of you. And maybe we’ll be able to conclude our plan “.
” Thanks man.” Gray replied nodding his head.
I really didn’t want Collins to go and be left all alone with Gray, he might start asking way too many questions and I might end up telling him the truth about the my condition.
I sighed seeing Collins walk out, and when Gray turned to look at me, my heart pounded like crazy.
” Let’s go upstairs, and talk about this “. Gray said.
” No, there’s nothing to talk about Gray, I already said I’m fine and nothings wrong with me ” I replied him with my voice very loud.
Look looked very surprised when I said this to him. He walks towards me and held my shoulders.
” Fine, but let’s go upstairs first, you can talk to me after that. Please” Gray begged.
I wanted to disagree with him and just walk away, but j couldn’t.
I nodded my head and followed him upstairs.
When we both got into the room he called in a maid first.
” Make something really nice, especially her favourites” He said to the maid.
She bowed her head and walked outside immediately she heard his order.
When he closed the door behind him, he walked towards me and sat beside me on the bed.
” Are you sure there’s nothing wrong with you ? Or if you aren’t comfortable with that stuff, I can just stop it and think of something else ” Gray said.
I closed my eyes tight for a bit, trying my best to control myself from talking, from saying the truth.
“Luna ” I heard Gray’s voice again.
” no Gray, am fine. Right now, I just need to rest that’s all”. I replied.
Gray still wasn’t letting go of my hand. I was already getting tired and weak from standing up and talking so much.
This isn’t what I need right now, but rest. Proper rest.
“Alright, if you say so. I guess its something you dont wanna talk about, but I trust you Luna, keep that in mind. “. Gray said, and it made me feel extremely guilty.
I nodded my head and truss releasing my hands from his, but I suddenly felt dizzy.
I staggered backwards a bit holding my forehead.
My body became weak, and I almost fell on the floor but I could feel Gray’s hands on my body which assisted me from falling.
” Luna “His worried voice Called as he lifted me up.
” something’s going on with you, I can feel it but i don’t know why you’re hiding it from me ”
I sighed while sitting on the bed this time.
” Alright fine I’ll tell you what it is ” I replied him
” I went to the hospital today Gray. I wasn’t feeling that good, so I had to go but believe me it’s nothing but a slight fever that’s all”. I lied again.
Oh God, it sucks lying to Gray and I don’t feel comfortable or happy about it one bit.
But if I want him to find out about our baby, then I want him to be happy about it and not at a time like this.
” Really, thought as much “. Gray said totally believing me.
Though it felt like a big relief her did, but it still sucks.
” Let’s go downstairs and have lunch, you must be hungry right?”
I nodded my head and he smiled.
I didn’t even get to eat anything this morning so I really have to eat a lot this afternoon.
” Gray, aren’t we training today? ” I asked him hoping he wouldn’t use this fever of a thing as an excuse to say no.
I wanted to touch my stomach and tell my baby sorry for trying to do something dangerous again especially lying to his papa but when Gray wouldn’t take his eyes off me, I couldn’t.
” Nope, you aren’t feeling good Luna, and you also know what that means? “. He asked
” Gray, I’m fine okay. I’ll just have a good rest for today and tomorrow I’ll be brand new again, trust me ” I replied touching his hands.
We both sat down beside each other and began eating.
” What about Collins, what’s up with him. Why’d he suddenly just leave like that ? ” I asked him.
I felt like him seeing I and Gray talk to each other that way wasn’t enough reason for him to leave that way.
” We had a really rough day today and he also found out he was being fooled today, but it’s no big deal. I told him not to worry”. Gray replied
” Really? But how ?” I asked curiously.
Well I knew it would be one of the dangerous things they do but I was still eager to hear.
” He almost got killed today, but thank goodness I was there on time to save his ass, I told him not to let his guard down, but I can’t believe he actually did and it’s quite surprising because Collins never does that ”
I shook my head a bit listening to Gray.
” Wow , that’s tough , but is he okay now?”
” Yeah , he’ll be fine soon. It happens once in a while too “Gray replied and I sighed feeling relieved.
” About Lisa ….”. I said making Gray look up at me.
” Hmmmm” He hummed and gave me a listening ear.
” I’m not bothered about what you’re gonna do okay, just make sure you try you best to make her believe you because that’s important right now. Any little mistake then we’re all fucked up especially now that we’re having a….” I wanted to complete the statement but I just suddenly stopped.
I cleared my throat and dropped my fork on the table trying to figure out an excuse and another word that would match what I actually had to say before.
“A hard time going to see my father because of all these shit “. I looked at Gray hoping he wouldn’t pick up any mistake.
He touched my hand making me shake a little.
” I know it’s so hard for you baby, but don’t worry everything’s gonna be alright. Once all these is over, we’ll spend some time outta here, to somewhere far away and enjoy ourselves okay”. Gray said
” Seriously, I think I need that Gray, that’s exactly what I need, to be somewhere where I can escape all these dangerous things, were we can be at peace for a while ” I replied him .
He stood up and walked behind me holding my shoulders.
” That’s exactly what we’re gonna have baby , peace of mind “. He replied and I smiled turning around to look at him .
Just then, Collins walked in.
” Hey “He greeted coming closer to us.
” Collins, how are you doing, heard what happened from Gray. Seriously you don’t need to blame yourself okay, everyone makes mistakes once or twice in their lifetime okay ” Luna said
” Here, take a seat and join us for lunch okay, there’s more than enough”
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I stood closer to Gray holding his hand.
” Gray, be careful okay. And make sure it all works out just the way we planned it to ”
Gray smiled back and hugged me tight.
” It’ll all end soon and we’re gonna make sure of it ” He replied.
” Lisa’s a tough one yunno , and a liar just make sure you get her to believe you. You can do this okay, now go make me proud and be back on time”
He was about turning to leave the room but stopped.
” Oh I almost forgot, Collins gonna be here soon to take you out, at least take some fresh air out for a while till I get back okay ”
I nodded ” thank you Gray ” Smiled and tried controlling my tears.
” Alright, bye”He badded and walked out.
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” It’s cold out here, come on let’s get you a sweater” Collins said while we were both walking
” Yeah it is, I really need one right now. What about you? Will you be fine this way “I asked him using both my hands to rub my shoulders as a result of the cold.
” Collins, can I ask you a question?” I said turning sideways to look at him.
He nodded answering me while we were both still walking.
” Do you think Gray’s ready to be afather, like how does he sees it, does he badly wish to have a child” I asked
Hearing such words from me, Collins stopped walking.
” Ever since he lost his father, Gray’s been so scared. Though he doesn’t show it to anyone but he is . But what scares him most is not being there for his child just like his father wasn’t there when he needed him most, his father died early and it broke him into pieces. That’s what scares him the most”.
I already had tears in my eyes hearing this from Collins.
” Then he’s gonna be a perfect Dad, one who would be there for his child like his father wasn’t ” I said.
” And he’s ready. But only if you’re by his side, only if both of you are together then he’ll do great. You both would do great okay “. Collins assured him tapping my shoulders gently.
I knew I had no right to keep this away from Gray, I wanted to open up to Collins but I had many doubts.
” Is there something wrong , why you saying all these” Collins asked startling me.
” No… no nothing’s wrong, was just a bit curious that’s all “. I replied him and forced a smile.
” Trust me when I say this, Gray thinks he’s gonna be an horrible dad, sometimes he asks me all the time about it, but nah I don’t think that’s gonna be the case. ”
” Gray…. Gray’s gonna make a wonderful dad, and you both will do great when the time comes okay ” Collins replied and when I heard him I fell more in love with Gray and my little angel in here.