The Beta’s Regret

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Eros pulled me to him. “That is great. Now close your eyes and keep trying. Focus on that feeling”

I nodded excitedly and closed my eyes again. I tried to sense it again, my mind searching for that tug I had felt in the back of my stomach as if something was pulling at me.

But there was nothing.

I focused hard, but again I felt emptiness.

Feeling nervous, my eyes flew open, and I blurted out worriedly,

“It–it is gone. I can’t feel anything. I can’t

“Shh,” Eros responded, placing a finger on my lips to silence me. The gesture was so intimate that I shook involuntarily. He didn’t seem to notice it.

“It will come to you. Believe in it. Believe in yourself. Keep trying. I am right here” Eros said in a soothing voice, and I let myself calm down. I missed this side of Eros,

I closed my eyes as my fingers held onto him tightly and tried searching for that pull. I had begun praying to the moon goddess again. I had definitely not imagined it.

“Please, please, let it happen” My mind was chanting and suddenly out of nowhere I felt a bolt of current pass through me.

It seemed to emerge from the base of my stomach and travel up, shooting straight towards my spine and traveling upwards.

“Ahh” I winced and grabbed onto Eros’s hand ughtly. The next few moments were something I would never forget. Pain, blinding, tore through me. It was as if a beast that had been in a deep slumber was awakening from its slumber, shaking the cave it had been resting in for so long.

“Ahh,” I cried again and felt my knees wobble. My entire body was shaking and I couldn’t find the strength to keep standing

I crashed to the ground, and felt a much larger thud resound beside me. Despite the pain, I noticed a pair of hands were still holding me tightly, not letting me go. But the pain was too intense to let me focus on anything else.

I threw my head back and my eyes flew open as I stared at the moon. It appeared blurry at first, as if it was enveloped by a hazy cloud, but then it swam into focus.

hardly got a moment to breathe when another bolt of pain shot up my spine.

My eyes watered, and at some point, I let go of the hands holding me. “Nooo”

I clawed at the earth to get a grip on myself as my body seemed to convulse and bend. My stomach was rioting as if I would- throw up and my head felt disoriented. The pain was worse than my first time in my previous life.

“You are shifting, Eden. You can do it. Fight it. Fight the pain” Those words and his soothing voice gave me a moment of relief. I was doing it, I could do it again.

The pain was so intense that I clawed at the grass viciously, trying to dig into the earth, trying to find comfort.

And to make matters worse, I was feeling extremely hot. As if I had been thrown in a blast furnace. My bones began to snap, and I felt as if a few of them had cracked.

At some point, tears began streaming out of my eyes and I cried as the pain almost rattled me.

No amount of training could have prepared me for this.

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The heat felt like liquid–fire punning through my veins, replacing blood and melting my bones and flesh.

It felt as if someone was cutting my skin could do nothing except watch and endure “Please, make it go away!!” I screamed.

I begged, and I felt two hands pull me close. The familiar scent of Eros’s cologne reached me and my mouth watered.

He embraced me with one hand and pushed the hair plastered to my face with the other

“You are a strong girl, Eden. I know it. You know it too. Fight, cutie. The way his voice sounded made my skin shiver. How could he believe in me when I was screaming on the forest ground, sweaty and confused?

“It’s hurting” I cried and my hand reached to my belly as I tried to clutch it.

“The dress. Probably you need to get rid of it.”

“Do it” I said without hesitation. At this point, I wouldn’t mind if somebody took my skin away too. I just wanted the pain to go away.

Eros hesitated, and I repeated, “DO IT

He did not need further pleading. His hand went to the sleeves of my dress and he gently tugged at it, careful not to hurt me in the process.

The sleeve fell to the side and next, he pulled the other sleeve of too. I took in lungfuls of air when he tore the front of my dress. It was as if my chest was caged and it was finally free.

Breathe” He patted my back as I bent down, my head touching the forest ground and taking in deep, raspy breaths. I was covered in sweat, and no amount of air seemed to cool me down

“Hot, I feel so hot, I mumbled and tugged at my hair, not knowing how long it would take.

Talk to your wolf. She is trying to force herself out. Tell her to be slow and that you

are helping her

I had not heard her voice in my head for a while now, but I did what he said, nonetheless.

*Please, I am here for you, Tiara. Take it slow Immediately, I felt the heat go down a little. Had that been because of her furious attempts to break out of the cage?

I did not know why it was taking so long. But then I had never really seen someone awaken their wolf.

“Did she show up?” Eros asked, and I shook my head.

He frowned, unsure of what to speak. I felt like a failure. All of this training and rigorous dieting had been for nothing. It seemed like my wolf was stuck behind some unknown barrier could only cry. But Eros seemed to have another plan. “Well then, let us help her,” He said and before I could ask what he meant, Eros’s hands went around me and he pulled me

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I could not even give a startled cry, I just rested my head on his chest as he hoisted me up and carried me.

But where was he taking met

His strides were long and in just under a minute, I felt something cool splash upon me.

He had brought me to the lake to calm down the heat

The cold water helped me, and I immediately felt my body rela The heat seemed to subside down considerably, but the pain was still there.

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“T–thanks,” I managed to mutter and let the cooling sensation of the water wash over me. The heat was now at a manageable level, but then I felt a different kind of heat pool bubble inside of me, between my legs to be specific.

Eros was holding me by the waist, looking at me with concern. And I was staring at him, at the way the shirt clung to his perfectly chiseled body, at the way water dripped down his head, flowing down his face.

Goddess, help me.

The heat began to grow more intense, demanding me to pull him close and let my hands roam all over his body. Copyright by Nôv/elDrama.Org.

I looked down, trying to hide my face as a blush crept up my face. Dirty thoughts began to pop up in my head, picturing

both of us.

He would think I was such a loser for hiding under the pretense of awakening a wolf. So I tried to bring my legs together and fight the heat pooling inside of me.

Gosh, this was so humiliating. He was here to help me awaken my wolf, not make me explore my wild fantasies.

I tried to put some distance between us. Would turning away from him help?

I had no idea, but I could not stare at that face for long without leaning in to kiss him. So I did the only sensible thing I could think of. I turned away and tried to close my eyes, fighting the urge and the pain.

But then I felt a wall of muscle touch my bare back and a hand brush my shoulder.

“You are going in hear”

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