Unforgiven Sins

Cinyla’s POV

After what happened yesterday, I was able to rest in bed. I wondered what happened to mommy because of her screaming yesterday. However, she was just surprised because she thought which old man was sitting on the sofa and sleeping is someone, a stranger.

It’s already dark and I’m just here in bed and my only light inside is the lampshade. I’m also used to it not being very bright, I think it’s better for me to just dim the light because apart from saving on electricity, I’ll get used to everything.

Right now I’m lying in bed, staring into nothingness. I gasped at what I thought. “Cinyla, are you still awake?” Mommy called my name while knocking.

“Yes mommy, just wait.” I stood up and put aside the things that were bothering me. When I opened the door, mommy’s worried look dawned on me.

I approached, “Hi mommy, why?” She quickly hugged me tightly when I surprised her.

“What’s wrong mommy? Are you okay?” I didn’t immediately hear an answer from her, but my mom’s hug tightened even more.

A few seconds passed and she released her hug from me.

“Mom, are you really okay?” My serious voice.

My mom just smiled sweetly, I didn’t understand what she was getting at but I felt it was tender.

I just hugged her again. “Mommy, you know that even though I’m older I am still your baby girl. You are always welcome and free to come to my room and we can talk.” I pulled mommy’s hand into my room.

“You’re still really clingy, Cinyla! You haven’t lost that attitude like your daddy.” Her voice was sad and crack as if she remembered daddy.

“Mom? Did you miss daddy?” I asked like an innocent child.

“Of course darling. I miss your daddy, even though he gave me a lot of pain.” I feel sad for my mom.

“But don’t worry baby girl, mommy is fine. I have forgiven your daddy. I have a question Cinyla, what if you have a brother or sister, will you accept him or her rather?” I almost felt a big thorn in my heart when I heard that question. What will I do when I find out that I have a brother or sister outside?

I thought for a few seconds but I only gave mommy a forced smile. “I don’t know mommy, I’m not ready to find out more. If he or she exists, I hope I never meet him or her. ” After I said that, I saw mommy’s appearance change but she hold my right hand.

She looked at me and said, “I understand you, my darling. I know you have many questions and you will feel angry with your daddy. But he no longer exists, sweetie but I know he had a child or children with another woman.  I hope you learn to forgive. I’m not asking it right now, but I hope you can too. We don’t know that he might have had a child outside.”

My chest pounded and many what if’s entered my mind. If it’s true that I have a stepbrother, that’s up to me. But I hope I don’t meet him anymore because I don’t want to. I don’t want to relive my past.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

Mommy tapped me on the shoulder. “Alright my beautiful daughter please rest now. I’m sorry for saying that, I just wanted to say hello and know how you feel. I’ll greet you tomorrow, you just have to see it. Good night, Sweetie my girl!” He smiled and stood up.

“Alright mommy, good night.” I chased her and led her out the door.

Do I really have a stepbrother or stepsister?

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I woke up early even though I had an 8:00 a. m. alarm. My body clock must have gotten used to it so I was awake at 7:30 a. m. I looked at my clock from the table to remove the alarm that I was made last night.

It’s also nonsense.

When I got up, my cell phone suddenly rang. I quickly looked for it and answered the call.

“h-hello?” I answered on the other line.

“I am here, please open the gate it is so hot here.” When I heard Sir BenChua’s voice, there was nothing and I stood up to look through the window to see if he was there or not. I saw that he was there and was hot.

“What are you doing here, sir?” I asked while still looking down.

“Just go down here, please.” He begged. I just hang up, adjust myself a bit and quickly get off.

“Oh Cinyla, it’s too early. Where are you going and why are you in such in hurry?” I couldn’t answer mommy’s question. I’m almost faster than a rabbit on the way down but also careful because I might fall.

Until I realized I wasn’t wearing a bra. I quickly looked for another towel before Sir BenChua opened the gate. Until I heard a series of doorbells.

I open the gate for him and the smile of the fool was strange.

“Finally, you’re here.” He smiled while looking at me. The hand is holding the gate.

“You look like a prisoner there! Let’s go, your art in the heat still has vitamins.”

He just went straight inside as if he was alone and didn’t hear me.

“Hey! I am talking to you!” I shouted here in case someone heard me.

“I hear you, would you please go back to your room again and fix yourself? You distract me.”

I raised an eyebrow at what he said, besides where he was distracted. “What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?” I asked her while still meowing.

“Nothing, just fix yourself.”

“In the morning, then you will tell me to fix it. why are you here Besides, why are you being distracted in the first place?” I asked one question after another because he touched my lips. Gently but quickly.

“It’s also a good morning for you. Get dressed, because I don’t want you dressed like that. Besides, I’m sorry I rushed you. I just miss you.” I almost got a meme from his answers. I don’t even know what spirit he has. I didn’t do anything but go upstairs to fix it. I removed the towel that I had wrapped around my future, and I noticed where he was going.

While I was fixing myself I touched my lips. I sat on the bed for a while and thought about something.

The softness of his lips. He is my first kiss!

I touch my chest and covered my mouth because I didn’t want to scream anymore. I just realized that he was the first to steal my kiss.

I went straight to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face, I wanted to get rid of what happened earlier. I brushed my lips one after the other and almost drowned my lips in water, but nothing would change because it had already happened.

I looked in the mirror and stared at my lips. “Why did you become my first kiss?” I said blankly while looking at myself.

Until I heard a knock on my door.

“Cinyla, you are coming down. Your boss is waiting for you. Are you gonna take long?” mommy asked. I quickly wiped myself with a towel and fixed myself. Changed to something better than what I was wearing earlier.

“I’m coming down too, mom!” I screamed.

I briefly look in the mirror again and whispered to myself. “Forget it, forget the kiss.”